Happy (belated) Birthday

Happy belated birthday Mom! Life is a little crazy these days with a 2 1/2 year old and a 7 week old baby, but I was certainly thinking about you and missing you on your birthday the other day. What I wouldn't give to celebrate with you just one more time. I find that the times I have missed you the very most have been when in the midst of the newborn baby phase with both my boys. You were THE BEST baby resource a person could ever have! People still tell me stories about how you did this for them or that for them when they were pulling their hair out with a newborn, or had such great nursing advice, soothing techniques etc. My new son Mason is fussier than Cameron was, and as sweet and precious as he is, I have my days where I just cry and want my mommy. ;) I have a great support system, but nobody could ever fill your shoes and I'm just reminded anew of the absence in my life where you lived. I will always miss you dearly. I will always have a lump in my throat when I think that my boys will not know you. But I will mostly just focus on the positive, and I won't wallow, because you wouldn't want me to. Thanks for continuing to teach me. I just pray I will be half the mom you were to me. Here's a little collage of the boys, featuring your latest grandson, Mason James. He was HUGE, 9lb 6oz, but I pushed him out in about 5 minutes. You would have been so proud of me. ;) I love you so much.