Jeanette Castady

"I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the LORD, in the land of the living. Wait for the LORD; Be strong and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the LORD."
-Psalm 27 13:14


On August 1st, 2006 our Mom was diagnosed with Stage 4 pancreatic cancer. This blog is dedicated to her.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

In Loving Memory, One Year Later


A year ago today my mom left this world and went to be with the Lord. I wonder what kind of year it’s been for her? I wonder if there is even time in Heaven? I guess it doesn’t matter, because I just know it’s Paradise and that’s all I could ever want for her. As for here on earth, where time does in fact exist, it certainly doesn’t seem like it’s been a year. If I didn't have a calendar to prove it I wouldn't even believe it. Not a day goes by that I don’t miss my mom, and long to see her, and hug her, and hear her voice one more time. She was the closest person in the world to me, the dearest to my heart, and she always will be. There is something about the bond of a mother and child that is so enormous, I can hardly wrap my mind around it. I will probably know it even more when I have my own kids, but from the child’s perspective, nothing can quite explain the enormity of that love in words. And as much faith as I have that God will continue to heal our hearts, and bring us peace as time passes, there will never be anything that can fill the place that my mom held in my life and in my heart. It’s just a mother’s rightful place. She was such a huge part of who I am, and who I will always strive to be as I grow older. I just thank God for giving me such a wonderful example to learn from. She had 6 kids, and I think I can speak for all of us when I say that nobody ever felt less loved by her, or any less important to her than anyone else. How did she do that? I don’t think I’ll ever know, but I'll sure try to emulate her when my time comes to be a mother. Talk about shooting for the stars. It doesn't matter if it's been 1 year, 5 years, 10 years, or more… our love will never fade, we’ll only miss her more. I love you, Mom, and miss you every single day.

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