Missing You Still

Oh mom. Some days I just can't believe it's been four years because the longing for you feels like it was yesterday. The more things change, the more I wish I had you here to talk to. Everything just seemed so simple when you were here. And when I had a hard time, or needed reassurance and encouragement, you always made it better. I miss having you a mile down the street or a phone call away so much. I have come to rely on God where I would have relied on you before, and I know that would make you happy. I should have always done that, but then I've changed a lot in that respect since he took you home. I do still believe good came of this loss where my spirituality and faith are concerned, but it doesn't make it hurt any less when I'm missing you. Luckily God always comforts me when I need it. Life is SO full of huge changes right now, and some days it just scares me to death. You always took it all in stride. I pray each day that God will instill in me the same grace he gave you to do the same. I love you so much. I will never stop missing you, or let anyone or anything replace the love I have for you in my heart. We move on, but we will never leave you behind.